What can i say is just please don't blame me and say i did nothing when you guys never tell me what i have to do and suppose to do. If you guys don't know about the situation and those promises, please don't say something stupid to me. I don't like people blame me and i actually don't know the matter and what's going on. Not i duwan to give opinion, but is you guys will always say: "do you think this is better if .......". If i say i'm ok with that, but you guys sure got something to say or make it become i reli have to follow your way. Then wat for i need to give my opinion?????? So, starting for now, i'll just obey wat you guys say and no objection will be making in order not to argue with you guys. Everyone is tired to argue, me too.....
If not because of i have to stay, then all of this will not happen. Everyone should take the responsibility in this matter. It not just a post, but it is a heavy job that no one is willing to take it up. You guys always said to me that actually got help me and try not to give me so many jobs. But, in the end, i'm the one only who know the load of the jobs. I reli dunno, izzit this is called "help"??? I've aledi try to finish the job that you guys give me asap, but the response i get back it just like i simply did my job and it's didn't meet your expectation. It just like i don't do my responsibility. Dunno why, reli hardly to feel the appreciation from you guys. So sad. Please do think about my feeling also if someone's said that i din think about other's feeling.
Finally i knew why the plan of cny dun have the planning for secretary. I think it's not because of you guys wanna let me do thing freely, but is actually you guys dunno what secretary should do on that period, it always subjected to change. Now, i reli prefer to have a plan that can let me to follow it, at least i know what i have to do on that time and no need like everything also have to do it at last minute. I hate people tell me to do thing last minute and somemore expect me to do it perfectly. Just like what you said, i'm human also, got limit one..... Why i have to do the job quickly once you guys tell me to do it? Why i can't do like other ppl, can delay it??? Why my reason is not a reason, but is an excuse that seems like i duwan to do it??? Izzit reli that urgent like what you guys tell me??? How urgent???
I'll lost my rasional when you guys didn't do/say like what you guys had told me. My EQ is super the low, please dun do/say something that make my EQ ever worst. I reli will lost control when you guys don't do thing like what you have said. When i obey the instruction that you give, you said i dunno to make changing according to different situation. When i don't 100% follow the instruction, you will say i do thing din follow what you've told me. Wah, you think i'm the worm inside your stomach ar??? Maybe i'm still a small little childish girl that dunno the thinking of the adult. I reli feel like @#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!#^..................
Anyway, this kind of disaster will come to an end after feb. I do hope everything is fine and no more argument or unhappy just because of the club. I'm waiting for the freedom now. Gambateh ba, life still go on..........
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